First Love
Friday, April 30, 2010
Bear Abby,
When I first started to come out. I would go to clubs drink and found out that gay men were just like my straight friends. I would not really speak but look.
On time I saw this guy who for me was great. I chatted him up and then we decided to meet the next day. It was awesome.
The only thing was that we were in the same boat, we were not OUT.
We dated for almost 4 years. At one point I mentioned are you happy etc. At that moment he said lets split. I drove home and threw up in the drive way.
We saw each other at points in time. A year later I met some one who I have been with for 15 years.
I have seen him and my partnered said ask him out for coffee which I did. HE said it was not a good Idea.
I feel stupid but I do think about him often. He lives approx. 20 miles away with his partner, I think.
I would love to sit down and just speak with him.
I just do not want to be rejected again. Do I reach out?
-Still in Love
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